Thursday, July 26, 2012

Heart to Heart

I just wrote this. A loving confrontation. Let me know what you think! "I know something is wrong. It is your choice if, when, and to whom you disclose that information. I understand that. I also understand that you have been on your own for a long time. As much as Henry tried, a big brother is not a substitute for a mother or father. Especially when he was alone and raising a child by himself. I know that you were like PJ's mom, and that you still take that role when you are with your family. You are one of the most independent people I know. Life has forced that upon you and it has helped you develop into the amazing and beautiful person you are today. It is because I know this that I understand you do not let people in. Henry and I have been the exceptions, but we are not under any illusions. We realize that there are times when you do not tell us things because you think we need protecting. That is part of your amazing personality. To protect those you love. I would not want you to change anything about yourself. If you did, you wouldn't be you, my girl next door. However, there are some things you need to understand. You are not alone. You do not have to handle any situation or struggle alone. I am here. I have always been here. I plan to be here, forever. You are running right now. I don't know what you are running from, but I know you are running. I know this because I have seen you do it before. I have talked you out of it and I have watched you struggle to let me help you. This," he motioned to himself then to her, "is not going away. You are not pushing me anywhere. I will be here. With or without your consent or permission. That is my choice. I will run behind you until you decide to let me catch up. If you want to run, I accept that. It is your choice. But sweetheart, you have another choice. Let me run with you. I will be there, I can run beside you if you let me. Just know this: I will not be waiting patiently for you. I will be running behind you or beside you. Until you realize you are not alone."